Everything is so hard. Finding it so hard to deal with just everyday stuff now. I'm really paranoid that none of my friends like me, so I'm isolating myself because I don't want to get hurt. I don't have anything in common with them, and they obviously don't want to hang around me at all. I need someone to talk to, but I've only known these people a few months and I can't burden them any further. I just really, really need a hug from someone who understands. But there's noone here.
I can't keep up with the work, because I have more or less no motivation at all. But the last thing I want is to quit, after I spent so long trying to get where I am. It's just infuriating that I can't make the most of it now. I'm gonna have to resit the year, but I can't face that failure.
Flashbacks are worse than ever. And I have noone to be there with me when I "wake up" and so just sit, absolutely terrified, in my room. I hate it. I hate that I can't escape all the bad thoughts and memories, I hate that it's so hard to give up SH, I hate that I haven't sorted myself out. I mean, what sort of crap doctor would I make?
Giving up. :sad:
I can't keep up with the work, because I have more or less no motivation at all. But the last thing I want is to quit, after I spent so long trying to get where I am. It's just infuriating that I can't make the most of it now. I'm gonna have to resit the year, but I can't face that failure.
Flashbacks are worse than ever. And I have noone to be there with me when I "wake up" and so just sit, absolutely terrified, in my room. I hate it. I hate that I can't escape all the bad thoughts and memories, I hate that it's so hard to give up SH, I hate that I haven't sorted myself out. I mean, what sort of crap doctor would I make?
Giving up. :sad: