I'm a complete pathetic coward. I'm almost 20 years old...been going to college for about a year. Parents are paying for the program and I've lost my motivation and interest in it. I also have severe anxiety and have had major depression through out college. The sickest part, I hate to admit is, I haven't really enjoyed this program from the start, nor going to college. I've been going downhill ever since watching my fucking grades fall down, having no friends...I feel disappointed in myself. I can't do anything fucking right. I don't wanna live this life. All I do is stay home all day. Well...I got the kick from college today, it's embarrassing, I don't know how to tell my parents. They expect more from me. I only have a few days to inform them. I can go deeper with the history of depression I've suffered... but I won't bother, and ultimately I'm not enjoying my life...suicide thoughts are taking over my head as each day passes. I know this is probably nothing compared to others though, I just don't know what to do with this...could anyone help please?