I can't stand the vulnerability of posting here but i am so god damned lost in this that i don't know what else to do. No one can understand that as long as i am attached to anyone, i will not be well. But if i am alone, wel that doesn't work either. You can't medicate that. Therapy; i trust the process but i am running out of time. The damage i am doing in the meaning time is irreparable. I can't do this for much longer. I am getting so paranoid and destroying everything. What am i supposed to do? I can't stand this. I am driving myself mad.