So right now I should be at camp and having fun. Except I'm sitting at home being majorly depressed. Some counselors found me curled up in a ball crying and so I thought why not ill seek a little help since I've been feeling depressed for the past couple weeks. I admitted that I cut myself really shallow once and hinted I was having suicidal thoughts. Naturally, they took me to the ER. the ER nurse had this wtf you're fourteen why the hell are you here attitude and she told me I was insane which made me even more depressed and I ten had to spend the night in the health office and they decided to send me home even though i had told them I get worse at home because I can get better help at home. So now my depression has worsened and I miss everyone at camp my parents arent even going to be sending me to see my psychologist (who doesn't help at all anyway) and are instead just like "so, what do you wanna do for the next two weeks???" And I want to SH more than ever dammit why'd they send me to my hell? Couldn't I have stayed in heaven for two weeks? Just two more weeks?