Okay this is the last straw. I'm tired of associating myself with a father who doesn't care.
He never asks me how I am, or how was school, but treats my step sister and step brothers like they are his world. I'm not noticed just because I'm his worst mistake.
For example, and this may sound petty, but dad wont give me a ride home from the football game on friday. He is willing to ditch me in a bad neighborhood in the middle of the night, knowing I can't get a ride home, because he said he wouldnt be in the mood to come pick me up. Yet, he plans to take everyone but me hiking on saturday and just tells me to spend the night somewhere else.
I'm staring at boxes in the garage really tempted to leave now. Like it matters to them? They have a perfect, beautiful family that I don't belong in. I could move in with Ryan once I graduate, or move in with a friend of mine and I'm sure he wont even notice.
I remember beginning of the school year, instead of saying how proud of me he was for being a senior, his exact words were "I'm so glad you are almost done. Now I can think for myself for once and not worry about you."
It just makes me so angry. I have NO parental figures what so ever. I never had them. Mom was too high and abusive and dad just didn't care. I had to grow up on my own and i'm just lost now.
He never asks me how I am, or how was school, but treats my step sister and step brothers like they are his world. I'm not noticed just because I'm his worst mistake.
For example, and this may sound petty, but dad wont give me a ride home from the football game on friday. He is willing to ditch me in a bad neighborhood in the middle of the night, knowing I can't get a ride home, because he said he wouldnt be in the mood to come pick me up. Yet, he plans to take everyone but me hiking on saturday and just tells me to spend the night somewhere else.
I'm staring at boxes in the garage really tempted to leave now. Like it matters to them? They have a perfect, beautiful family that I don't belong in. I could move in with Ryan once I graduate, or move in with a friend of mine and I'm sure he wont even notice.
I remember beginning of the school year, instead of saying how proud of me he was for being a senior, his exact words were "I'm so glad you are almost done. Now I can think for myself for once and not worry about you."
It just makes me so angry. I have NO parental figures what so ever. I never had them. Mom was too high and abusive and dad just didn't care. I had to grow up on my own and i'm just lost now.
