God dammit. God dammit. I hate myself so much. I've never felt such intense hatred for another human being as I for the worthless pile of shit that I call myself. I have no redeeming qualities whatsoever. I'm disgusting to look at, I have a needy, clingy personality. The only reason someone would want to be around me is because they feel sorry for me and they're shocked that one person could be as worthless and useless as I am. Even this post is a disgusting ploy for attention and I hate myself for it. My life is a JOKE. Everything I care about is meaningless. Why the fuck am I even alive? I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve to eat or drink. Today all I've had is a drink of Vitamin Water in a moment of weakness. I wish I could die. I really do. But I'm too weak to do it. Too weak to allow myself to feel the pain. I fail at everything, even suicide. God dammit.