I feel so terribly angry today! They are forcing that bull shit again.. I can't stand it.. These internal battles contradicting themselves. I want to avoid my life. Make this all disappear! Leave me alone! Just fucking leave me alone! I don't care if none you reply to my shit. I know I'm fucking mental. I know I'm dramatic. Because that's my brain for ya.. I fucking feel things terribly strong. I have hardly any patience. And no one could ever understand what it's been and is like for me. Not that anyone actually cares.. No one actually wants to get to know anyone. No one is open enough. I just have no fucking boundaries. I can't shut my mind or fingers up. I am fucking trying! Whatever.. I just don't know what to do anymore.. It's not like I'm not trying.. Not like people actually understand my situation.. and me opening my mouth just makes it worse! So Fuck it!