I'm not the Elephant Man or anything but I'm quite an unattractive bastard, as people go. It's destroyed my life. I haven't a trace of confidence in myself. Physical appearance is all that really matters isn't it? Well, that or money I cannot express in words how painful it is to know that no female will ever feel attraction towards me and that the thought of physical contact with me would repel them. I can't blame them for it, it's simply human nature to feel attraction to some and not to others. I don't know what else to write. I'm sure it's the same old shit the like of which has been posted here many times before. Ugliness destroys lives and kills, it really does. It's the most awful situation to be in. There's no escape. I realised today I have not touched another human being in affection since I was a child. It can't be healthy, in fact I know it's not. I really fear it's turning me into a cold, hateful person. That's life for an ugly bastard though. It can't be helped. I'm sorry for writing this crap. Perhaps attempting to express my feelings will help a bit, I don't know.