ok here you go I've got peeling lips (eww gross crust) red veins on the tip of my nose, hugeblackheads there as well, it looks red, sometime it looks only "pink" depending on the light. pinkness, redness aroundthe nostrils I get whiteheads on the sides. I have a crooked nose, inflamattion around my lips that has been painful, neuropathy at times. I had a bunch of cold sores last summer on the right lower side of my mouth, it looks like a redish line(almost like lipstick from the right side view) now more recently redness around the lower sides of my mouth, My left jaw has receeded from some nerve damage, I have some slight swelling on the left side face a few inches around(not sure what caused or is causing it). Some of my skin has faded in color not sure the cause maybe it's kidney damage or something else. Lately I've had tons of spider veins, and red dots pop up all over my arms and body. My hairline has receeded unevenly, hairs on my nose, hairs in the middle of my eyebrows(not a unibrow but still) Lately with all my other health problems I've been having a ton of acne/whiteheads(invisble ones too) around my nose, chin and mouth area on top of the other issues. My skin has been itchy all over. joint,bone, muscle aches and pains, pain in swollen lymph node, fatigue just to name a few. My skin doesn't just look bad it alot of the time I can FEEL the irritaiton. Basically I'm in pain and or irritated all the time it's just to what degree, wether it's actual physical pain, or the worrying about how S***ty I look or both.I was anxious before with some issues but this has just gotten out of hand to the point where I feel so horrible, I'm not just some emo kid these are real things. My white blood cell count is really elavated and my IgG is really low a sign of some type of serious condition, such as leukemia, lympoma, chronic kidney damage) I can't workout with my body in this condition that's one thing I really enjoy doing.( I feel crampy and in pain just sitting there, doing simple things) let alone go out with a friend or have a job, go to school do anything normal whatsoever, build any meaningfull relationships, at this point I'm not even sure what's physically wrong with me... One doc thought vitamins and supplements would help but they only make my lips worse and my skin feels totally horrible I guess it drys it out. At the dentist the other day, I heard the lady go in the back room while I was on the turn around about x ray machine say somethin about "nightmares" most likely refering to me... When making a left turn at an intersection quite often I see people turn there heads as they're looking at me. People walking on the street(mostly women) look away when I drive by or they look at me and then touch their mouth, nose area etc.... I've been alone for so long being too sensitive about my other physical defects and issues, letting anxiety take over.. and well now things have gotten way way worse. to the point where even going out to a doctor or get a bloodtest to figure out what's causing my physical problems is extremely stressful. Little things like that are way way harder then they should be. I haven't connected with a girl in 5 years, and this one girl who I get along with very well over the internet well I don't even want to go out and experience the extreme anxiety to meet her, I don't want her to see me in such a bad condition, who would? I wish I had "Normal Problems" like most people have, like my GF dumped me or feeling lonely...I have been alone for so long on top of things(not that those aren't legitmate problems but their fairly average and common) Sure worrying about ones looks is common but 99.99% of people don't have anywhere close to the things wrong with them, not counting overweight people which is overlooked and is easily fixable, minus those who have underlying conditions like diabetes etc. I haven't gone out with anyone in 2 months, and before that I was pretty antisocial. last year I didn't go out with any friends for well over a 12 months, lost contact with everyone, now I only have 1 friend. 3 months ago I was relatively happy in my own shoes and confident, despite my circumstances not being nearly as bad as they are now. I feel like i'm dying a slow and painful death with all of my physical ailments. I wake up numerous times in the ngiht when normally I sleep like a baby, my day starts up feeling hugely fatigued and feeling my body ache and itche.. No one seems to understand how hard it is walking in my shoes. This one sweet girl who I get along with fairly well(chatted for a few months on msn, we haven't met yet she lives a couple hours away) told me she would have offed herself a long time ago if she was in my shoes with all the worrying I put myself through. It's hard to not worry when you feel the irritation and pain all the time and when you look in the mirror you can see it as well. People touching their nose and mouth area trigger exasberate my anxiety big time. if you took a group of people and put them in my shoes for the past few months most of them would have done themselves in a long time ago. Especially when I was experiencing severe pheripheral neuropathy around my lips/mouth... What would you do if it was you?