Just crossed back over the line onto the bad side. It'd been a nice few days. My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my stomach hurts, my shoulders hurt.... there's just no fuckin' hope. This isn't gonna get any better, it's all just fucking bullshit and fucking self deceit. Nothing's ever gonna fucking change for the better. On the upside, I manage to avoid self-harm for now. I think I strained myself doing it. The same fucking bullshit everyday and I'm not getting any better. Whatever temporary comfort I can find, at the end of the day, the same truths lie beneath it all, the same deficiencies. I'm so fucking tired on every level and I just want to sleep forever.