...It's happening again. Had an eventful day yesterday. Was arrested by the police for breach of the peace and was taken to police station on section 136 as i had self harmed badly. Was then released back home where i smashed my flat up, cut myself, took an overdose and then played my music really loud which got me into trouble again. The neighbours called the police (who have smashed my door in good and proper ) and the whole thing started over again. Now, I'm feeling like i'm going to do the same thing again. in fact i know i will. I don't know how to stop it. The voices tell me to do it. stupid thing is at the time i enjoy it. i'm full of energy and excitable then when i'm finished/arrested i go on a massive downer. I can't control it. But people won't help me. They just get angry with me for what i have done. it's not my fault. I can't help it. I'm in self destruct mode.