Ultimate catch 22

[Bruces]

I was watching a programme about survivors of suicide last night and it's devastating what it does to the family's left behind but also my life is devastating and outright misery so I'm stuck either way

 

[AAA3330]

I'm in so much mental pain that I guess that I don't think much about what it would do to my family. It's hard for me to focus on anything but the pain that I'm in.

 

[Petal]

Bruces, you need to get some professional help. It is the best thing for you to do, help is out there all you need is to be willing :hug:

 

[Unknown_111]

Bruces, you need to be strong and also seek professional help as soon as possible. Life is tough but be safe.

 

[Bruces]

Why can't I be normal

 

[DrownedFishOnFire]

Why can't I be normal

What is normal?

 

[Bruces]

I've been having treatment for years

 

[DrownedFishOnFire]

What is normal.

 

[Vaughan]

I've been having treatment for years

And you'll likely be having treatment for years to come. The treatment isn't really an issue, none of us are perfect.

 

[Bruces]

Nothing seems to make much difference to me

 

[Vaughan]

Nothing seems to make much difference to me

Doesn't that just mean you haven't found the correct regimen yet?

 

[Bruces]

What really is the point when we live such lives of misery? I hate looking at friends and fmily having great lives

 

[Vaughan]

What really is the point when we live such lives of misery? I hate looking at friends and fmily having great lives

Well, it's not about them, Bruces. It's about you. Getting treatment and fixed up is a gift to yourself.

 

[Bruces]

I can't be fixed

 

[Vaughan]

I can't be fixed

Hey, that doesn't mean you should stop trying.

 

[Bruces]

You should keep trying despite it been pointless

 

[Bruces]

Knowing that you'll never live the life that others do???

 

[Vaughan]

Knowing that you'll never live the life that others do???

Sorry, I have been away from the computer - and must leave again soon. Didn't want to leave you hanging.

Speaking personally, I don't obsess on what other peoples lives are like. They're all different, and for all I know they're all in crisis too. A lot of every day life is a facade - from people putting make-up on to look prettier, to those who will only wear special brands of shoes, or drive BMW's for status..... everyone has a mask of one kind or another.

Instead, you need to put the effort into finding out who you are, and what you want. I saw a documentary recently about a family who sailed around the world on a Yacht. It was a life-long dream. That was THEIR life. I enjoyed the documentary, but I couldn't get away from the fact that I'd not ever want to do what they did - that their lives were completely alien to me.

So I'm not sure who these "others" are you're talking about, but the fact is, we're individuals, not a collective. The world is full of scientists, teachers, cops, garbage men, and strippers. All people - and all different people. You just need to figure out who you are.

 

[bayareagirl]

Bruces, I understand your pain. I'm there too. But none of us can say what the future holds or whether we'll get better or not. The only thing we can change is ourselves, here and now. But I understand how that's too much to contemplate - I honestly do.

 

[Bruces]

I'm really ready for my life to end it's pointless and worthless how can you live being so inferior?