I'm not very good at communicating with people online, but I somehow ended up finding this forum and I suppose I do need someone to talk to. I guess all of us here know how difficult it is to open up to people you know and care for irl. I have people who rely on me and I need to come across as a strong, calm and collected person for them, so obviously I can't go around telling people what a mess I really am and how difficult it's become to just open my eyes and get up from bed each day. So I've come to bother you lovely people with my problems instead, haha. Jokes aside, I'm realizing I'm having a bit of trouble actually writing out all the stuff that's bothering me, now that I'm here, so perhaps I'll delay that a bit and take my time getting to know the community here first. :") And well, I just want to remind you all (and myself, since i need the push right now) that all the struggles you're going through make you a stronger person, and all our flaws and imperfections are what make each and every one of us beautiful and unique, we're all only human, and we all have our own demons we fight with, we all get sad and hurt and scared and there's nothing wrong with admitting that, and reaching out to others for support, people can be cruel, but I hope I've come to the right place in search of those who will try to understand, and help each other through it.