I don't cut, but I hit myself. Bats to the head, slamming doors on fingers/hands, (used to throw myself down stairs, hoping to break my neck or forget things). Is it as bad as cutting? I've been doing it for a while now... I don't know how to stop, or if I want too. Its just feels like an release. I know I should stop, but I don't know how too. Sorry if I wasted your time.