well long story short I posted ages ago about Mum having dizzy spells... well months and months later she still has them, I think, but she wont admit it. She says she's better but somehow I get the idea that she's holding out on me. I think she's still sick but she absolutely refuses to go to the docs. Its not just dizzy spells though, her right arm has gotten bad again and she cant lift that much heavy stuff and so she's been getting me to do the housework again - more than what I usually do that is, which is fairly sizable compared to my friends. And then when she does something a bit more rigorous, like say vacuuming, I notice sometimes she has to stop suddenly to catch her breath, and she also seems a lot more tired than her usual tired - and yet she's getting more sleep than she usually does, even with her sleep apnoea (sp?). I'm starting to think it might be something to do with her heart... which makes it even more important methinks for her to go to the docs, and so I mentioned it today to her. But she said that she doesnt want to go, even though she was due to go back for a blood test about 4 months ago now. she says that she doesnt want to know, which to me implies that something IS wrong. And also, I really dont think that she cares much that if she puts off a visit to the docs that she'll make it worse.. whatever it might be. I'm thinking i should tell dad too... as much as I dont really like him much atm and as much as I dont really see him much coz I think he needs to know. But then shouldnt it be Mum not me to tell him? But on the other hand he should prolly know - because if Mum actually does have something wrong - which im pretty sure she does and something happens to her I dont know if i'd forgive myself... coz I'm starting to worry for her. Bleugh I dont know anymore... sorry for rambling... I guess I just really dont know and so it sort of turned into a rant... oh well.