One of the biggest reasons I want to die is my period cycle, yeah I know lots of women suffer, it's often joked about and misunderstood, but it is serious, maybe not half as much as cancer or AIDS, but it is a serious issue when the pain and suffering go beyond what is naturualy expected from the female body. I've suffared with horrifc period pain since I started my periods at about age 12-13, pretty much the "avarage age" and there were no other problems, one day when I was about 17 I almost passed out in pain and all the colour drained out of my face etc etc and my mum insisted I see the doctor, who did numerous blood tests etc, only to find me to be in "good health", nothing the matter. I have seen numerous other doctors, who have ether not beleived me or blamed it on me having Asperger Syndrome and a "low pain threshold" lol. I went on the pill for about a year when I was 19, which messed my entire life upside down, I turned into a different person and my periods went out of control, so I stopped it, but the pain, oh my lord the pain, EVERY month no fail as soon as I come on it's guaranteed that I will be unable to walk within 2 hours of starting, and if I try I will feel so dizzy and weak I can't get far, it's like being disabled, I'm lucky if I can sit at the PC for long before I have tears steaming down my face simply from the pain. Having to face this every month no fail plus all the other contents of my fucked up existance is slowly pushing me towards a very lonely end. I am absolutly terrified of doctors and all their "probes" I really don;t think I could cope with it when I'm like that, and the only way they might beleive me is to see me in that state, so it's a vicious circle of disbeleif, after all they are just humans, who at the end of the day eliminate all "known" reasons behind things like this then I suppose when nothing out of the ordanary is found they close the case, and even if they did they would want to giveme more hormonal crap, I don't see the point in messing up my alreaddy very unstable head all month long for what is a 3 day max problem. I've tried all the pain pills the pharmacy sells, no hope there.