So I have to be at work in a little over two hours (as of this post). I want to call in sick. I slept very little last night, and I'm overcome with a dreadful feeling of worthlessness. I barely even feel like standing. But the way I feel is unacceptable in today's day. My boss requires that I suck it up and white-knuckle through another 9 hours. Even though my work output will be drastically less, I have to go in because it's "responsible." So I'm forced to decide between feeling like shit all day, or feeling like shit who sucks at his job all day. The worst part is there is almost no real world sympathy for a person in my position. Young and strong male living at home. A lot of people believe I have no excuses for the way I feel. I can't call in saying "hey I'm not coming in because I can't bear existing for today." I'll get fired, and then possibly have other employers informed of my "habits." It's starting to feel like I have to make a choice between being employable and being okay.