uncontrollable despair

[thingsaregonnachange]

I have been trying hard for a year and nothing in my life changes or improves.

Though I have a method neatly planned out I'm afraid I might get a sudden rush of despair and throw myself off some high place.

Tried so hard, gave my best, while the mediocres and insentitive bastards thrive.

I don't even have anything to say anymore. My fate now lies in the hands of Providence, see if she decides to give me a break.

If not, better at 27 than at 80, I suppose.

 

[Butterfly]

I have been trying hard for a year and nothing in my life changes or improves.

Though I have a method neatly planned out I'm afraid I might get a sudden rush of despair and throw myself off some high place.

Tried so hard, gave my best, while the mediocres and insentitive bastards thrive.

I don't even have anything to say anymore. My fate now lies in the hands of Providence, see if she decides to give me a break.

If not, better at 27 than at 80, I suppose.

What makes you want to take your life? It isn't the answer by the way. Depression is awful and takes an awful lot of perseverance and hard work. Reach out to us here and speak to us. We care and we do understand.