So, after the most recent episode I had, when I got out of the crisis center in Tulsa, I have a new diagnosis: Borderline Personality Disorder. Honestly, after that diagnosis, I asked for some info on it and was kinda surprised how much of it fits me like a glove. Now, I'm willing to bet there are a few other people here with the same condition and they can probably relate with what I'm going to say. Right now, I'm fine and I'm pretty sure I can get my life together. However, one of the symptoms of BPD is sudden, intense mood swings. And that scares me. Right now I know everything will turn out okay, eventually, but tomorrow or the day after.... what if I have one of those mood swings? I'm honestly scared that a suicidal urge may take me in a moment of weakness. It's nearly happened a few times already.