Please understand that I'm not trying to be a pain, a nuisance, an inconvenience, a problem. I'm not lazy or mad, just extremely sad. My friends and family are usually quite supportive, well they try to be. They don't really know what to do or say and I'm not sure if even I know. My closest friends just look at me sadly and I don't want that I don't want to be seen as broken or weak. My family will constantly remind me of how it's all just a phase and it will get better or "just go out and be happy," but I can't. I cant leave my house because I'm to tired, because my stomach twists in knots and I'm so ashamed to be seen. But to them I'm just not trying. So I guess I just came here to find someone or something.