Wondering how to deal with this... anxiety of unforeseen consequences. Y'know scared to make a move in case it totally screws up your life even though you know its for the best? I have been suffering from bouts of depression, but now i get paranoid if the phone rings that its someone to get my parents angered at me and i am worried every time i leave my room in case i get hurt or put in danger. I know i should see a councilor or therapist to get evaluated or just to talk to. But i am scared shitless to what will become of it. I have gotten close to getting help so many times, talked to my doctors, talked to friends, got numbers to therapy and got appointments but i never go and i refuse to answer the phone to them after wards. I'm a coward, a chicken. I can't stand up and take control and take dive when it is in terms of my mental health. When it comes to love, education and general life i love the thrill of just going for it. But this subject. It scares me. I dont know how to deal with it.