After reading forums and blogs, i tried it last night. I drink a lot of -----. Unfortuantely, it didn't work. Maybe if i did drink a little more then i might be successful. Now i feel so nauseous, light headed, sluggish and my stomach circling since last night. I didn't feel regretful because i did it, i feel regretful because i failed. I feel so bad. Not being heard or not having someone to talk to. I'm afraid to be seen as ridiculous or something. I just can't help it. I did it last night before going to sleep, thinking that i would not woke up the next day. Maybe i will try again next time. Maybe i will research more on things before doing it. Maybe. If i could just find a new way, and easy way that i will not fail. The world seems just too cruel. I don't want to live any longer...help me..i want to rest..