I'm a darkskinned Black woman and I have felt rejection my whole life. I don't feel as attractive as lightskinned and mixed women, and desperately have tried to lighten my skin to make myself more attractive for several years. Unfortunately, I've never gotten to the color I wanted to be. Before you tell me that darkskinned is beautiful, I've heard ppl feed me those lines before on the internet. It's just not true in the real world. Lighterskinned women always get more attention and the selection of better mates. I just want to end my life and put myself out of this misery. I dont want to live anymore if I cannot be light skinned. I just can't take it anymore. Everytime I look in the mirror I see ugliness and masculinity. I just don't like myself.