Thanks, guys....I'm so glad that you can relate to what I'm going through.
I'm caught between two decisions:
1. Kill myself and put an end to all of my misery. The thought of this person being around somewhere and not being with them is like Hell on Earth; OR
2. Live out the rest of my life in misery and fight on. All of our lives go by pretty quickly anyway, don't they? When you put work, stress and not having enough free time for anything into the equation, it seems like natural death is not that far away when putting everything into a proper context.
Regarding option 2 above, it is a case of wanting my natural life to go by as quickly as possible so that it can be over and done with.
By the way, does anyone know that song 'Suicide Is Painless' by Johnny Mandel? It is the theme song to the television sitcom series 'M.A.S.H.'.....I have been listening to this song quite frequently on my iPod of late....