It's been 9 months since i posted this... just wanted to report that im not afraid to say i dont love her anymore. i guess i moved on but i still get this awkward undescribable feeling in my stomach when i see Her, which i dont as much anymore. I stil miss her sometimes and i know there will always be a place for her in my heart. however ive gotten myself into so much trouble because of what she put me through.. skipping school, cutting, crying, hating myself and everyone else... but if i had the chance to go back to all the words i ever said, i would do it all the same
but even now.. i dont feel like i could ever return to the life i lived before i met her... im lost and trying to find my way, and the stupid fuckers at school who just see me as a stoner and a loser bad boy dont make my life any easier, so i dont really have any chance socially to find someone new.. i just sometimes wish she would be back in my life.. because i know she could save me from all this