Unsure about everything

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by distress, May 24, 2011.

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  1. distress

    distress Well-Known Member

    I dont know what i feel. I have talked to my doc a lot, but i feel its useless. and i have no one to talk to anymore. Since my chat buddy passed away I haven't really cared about healing anymore. There is this feeling inside of me that doesnt want to care anymore and it's becoming stronger everyday. I feel like im breaking apart and one day, no 'if', I will snap and be over and gone for good. I was so shaken up and i dont know what to feel cause all i do is think about how im going to kill myself, xxxxxx or a replica of my last attempt where there will be no chance of failure this time. I was completely shaken up today as i witness a man just breakdown into tears and completely breakdown to nothing. Everything he said was true that life brings us to this point and no one cares what happens, or at least they only appear to fucking care. A STATISTIC he called himself. Maybe that is all we are. Then he preceded to the bridge we were standing on and attempted to jump. My heart jumped for the first time in my life. Though he was caught just in time by a bystander. This almost killed me that afternoon, literally, as my arms became a mess. I just cant do this bullshit anymore and I'm not just saying that
     
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  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Distress...I surely know how you feel right now...but I do believe there is value in support and being cared for...there are many ppl here who will also relate to what you have written I am sure...please continue to post and let us know what is going on...you will be surprised how many ppl will affirm that you are not alone...J
     
  3. *kyle*

    *kyle* Well-Known Member

    thats right distress we are here for YOU! this forums filled with the people who do care, everyone here has been through some bad things and its only when you go through bad things you can help others see the good.
    i hope we hear from you again, ill keep an eye out for you post.
     
  4. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    :hug: You've had some very sad and upsetting experiences. I'm sorry about your chat friend. It sounds like you're in a rough spot right now.

    Please know that you are more than a statistic. Keep sharing here if you can, and let people show you that you are worth a lot to the world (and to yourself). You obviously have a great capacity to care for others, but let us care for you for now, huh?

    Thinking of you.
     
  5. distress

    distress Well-Known Member

    Thanks for all your kind words it means alot. I give up kinda sick of everything bad happening to me
     
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