Hi Just want to tell someone about the things that are bothering me at the moment :mellow:. Well for until about a year ago i thought that both me and my brother was abused as children by our father, as our mother told us and thats why he wasen't around during our childhood. For reasons i dident understand my brother started meeting him through some institute and we ended up getting to know him and he became the most support person in my life(as no one else seams to care) but at the same time i was scared, confused and just tried not thinking about what my mother had told me as i didten remember anything myself. This was eating me up from the inside and I was having suicide thought for quite some time due to this i think. Well one year ago I found out that he was wrongly accused, had gotten restitution(dunno if its the right English word) and all. when i found out i just went empty, it felt like all my misery was fake, my feelings was based on a lie. My mother hadn't cared to tell me this and i guess my brother knew to, well i lived one year now on this emptiness and its filling up with new confuses. Im not sure what to do, i never been a open person and my mother aint a good listener. Told her once that i was on the edge of suicide and she patted my shoulder and told me not to think like that. I talk to my father abit and he explained his side of the story but i dident dare to tell him mine. Now im starting to feel low again... Feels better to just write it down so im quite glad this forum is here. thanks.