So what might seem silly has sent me into spirals this evening. Someone I know jumped me and I didn't know they were there and they put their hands around my waist. I screamed and then left that location. I'm still shaking, hours later. I'm tired of all this bs hanging around me, what I mean is how things still affect me now that happened years ago. To ask the age old question..is this as good as it gets? It just doesn't go away. Am completely on edge, wired out and having issues not disassociating still. I'm really trying tonight to calm myself and be logical and do things that are meant to help. These things aren't working right now, so what the hell am I meant to do?