Unsure & worthless

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Failure to launch, Mar 8, 2012.

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  1. Failure to launch

    Failure to launch New Member

    My first post.
    I've read some other forums and most people on there
    Have had stressful backgrounds etc and some people responded
    Negatively about how there's always someone worse
    Off etc. but for me that's just it. People say I'm pretty, I
    Have a job, a home, wonderful parents I can't fault, a
    Good background. So the tremendous guilt I feel for
    Feeling suicidal is made worse, I feel like an even bigger
    Failure. A big waste of space - for feeling like this and even more so
    Because I haven't done it yet.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi and welcome...being in pain is not a contest. Each person's pain is authentic and important. I am so glad you have not done it yet and I hope you will stay here to see that there are so many people who relate to what you are feeling. Please let us know what is going on and what has brought you here
     
  3. Failure to launch

    Failure to launch New Member

    Thanku for replying.
    I guess I'm struggling with the idea of
    Worth. If I feel I'm not giving anything
    Back then I'm just a sponge on the world
    So what's the point. If I want to end my life
    And Im not brave enough then I'm a waste
    And a bigger loser cos I can't even do that.
    I've had these feelings for years. They stemmed
    From a past rel where he cheated. I felt so
    Confused & upset and when we broke up
    I felt like half my life was missing. And I guess
    Everytime I break up w someone I revert back to
    An overwhelming sense of loss and worthlessness.
    I've broken up recently, but nowdays I'm 32, live alone
    I'm lonely, I stare down a road of nothing, giving nothing back to the
    World noone to share it w, no family of my own, so
    What's the point?
     
  4. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey there, Some of us are ment to be alone.. If you want a relationship then you need to get out there and let men know you are single.. Do you have any male friends?? Maybe they know someone who is single..Your still young.. I've been alone for 25 years..But mine is voluntary.. I know the pain of breaking it off with someone.. I bet you have alot of good traits.. The main thing is to let people know you are back in the game..Best wishes...
     
  5. Failure to launch

    Failure to launch New Member

    Thanku Joseph. That's just it-I don't want to be alone. Im ok w my own company but I want to b in a loving relationship, I want to have a family. Now I'm alone again. I don't love for loves sake, if I fall I fall hard and when it's gone my first thought always is I want to hurt myself, I want to end my life. Is this normal I don't kno, I don't think so. How do u get thru breakups without going to a very dark place? I'm lost, I hurt and I want it to stop-suicide is my only thought how I can get that relief.
     
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