alright, well i have no idea where the fuck i am right now!!! k i lied,i'm @ my mom's lol but i'm on Ecstasy and i've been drinking, so not good!!! i don't know what to do, everyone pretty much ditched me!! and everyone pretty much left me hanging...one guy(big black guy) wanted to go smoke pot with him...good thing i said no, who knows what would've happened... My roomate is sleeping right now, she looks like um...dark, i can't really see her :laugh: I've smoked some pot and drank too...probably not a good idea... i've been thinking a lot you know...about life, about where i am in life, what i want to do in life. All of it sounds like a fucking joke if you ask me...i try to hard, i try too hard to be nice and to fit in!! i'm fucking sick and tired of it, i want to go to the bar, i want to get high and forget what i did the night before...I think i'm starting to drink too much, smoke too much, just be blah all the time and so mellow that i don't care what others think...sometimes that's a bad thing. I know that is very random considering i've had E, pot, and alcohol,i don't even know how much!!!! this isn't good :unsure: should i sleep?