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Jill

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I knew what I was doing last night when I carved I hate you in my leg I thought it would help relieve some of the pain I am feeling. But it did not. Just made it worse. I am basically ready to go I am tired of fighting and I am tired of trying to feel better. If I saw a point to keep on fighting then maybe I could feel something besides pain. I just feel so hopeless right now.
 

Jill

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I remember the pain as a child
Always running always hiding
I remember the pain of today
And I know that I don't want to stay
It's time for me to say goodbye
To stop all the pain that I feel inside
It's time that I wake up and realize
That nothing will change in this life
I could keep pretending that I am okay
Just so they don't lock me away
I could cut my way to feeling better
And hope that in the end it will matter
This time it's gone to far
It's never over never gone
I will once again wake up to see
That nothing will ever change inside of me
It's time to say to everyone in my life
To kiss my ass and say goodbye
It's been a real trial and I've failed the test
And now it's time to put my heart to rest
The pain is to much for me to take
I want to die and never wake
 

kath

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Jill you are so expressive and i relate to a lot of what youve written too.i think aobut you often.Still remember the talk we had in chat.im sorry that i cant do mroe to ease your pain than just be here for you but i will very much try at least to do that and please keep posting and feel free to PM [private message] me anytime if it helps too!!!Just do waht helps you and know we are hearing you.i know it is hard.i know it is tough.And that you are tired but please dont give up.
 
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