Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by FrainBart, Nov 5, 2012.

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  1. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    I really do not know myself anymore.
    I feel so lost. I hurt people.
    I am a horrible person.
    Nothing I do is ever good enough
    Nor is it enough

    I gave my word to try my best
    but even that is not enough
    nothing I say is worth the paper they are written on
    I am sorry for being this much of a failure
    I am sorry for obviously not trying hard enough

    none of my efforts are
    my best is just not worth while
    I am not worth any of the time spent
    I am not worth the effort people have put in

    I do not understand why anyone should care
    whether I live or die
    whether I keep on going
    for whatever it achieves
    but a continuation of my misery

    And should this darkness lift?
    what then? what will that be like?
    Will I be happy... will I not feel so .. lost
    I am a shell again,
    and again I shall get a glimmer
    of better days and feel alive
    if only for a few short hours

    And when the time comes
    again I fall into a shell
    I question myself again and again
    is this how life's to be?
    a wish for darkness
    but should that wish be fulfilled...
    then please forgive me
  2. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    The speaker in your poem is in such a dark place s/he can't see how others might see good in them.

    I hope you know how cared about YOU are here, and how far from a failure you are. You give so much and you are a very worthwhile and good person to know. :hug:
  3. FrainBart

    FrainBart Staff Alumni

    I wish that were to be true, but given the evidence... I struggle to see truth :unsure:
  4. meaningless-vessel

    meaningless-vessel Well-Known Member

    Unless the speaker of this puts themselves into a position to at least try to find out if the darkness can lift, and if life can be enjoyed after all, then there's nothing anyone can do.

    That said, you know my opinion of you, and I have a gut feeling I know who this is about.
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