Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Greying, Sep 14, 2016.

  1. Greying

    Greying Well-Known Member

    Depression is a tyrannic ruler. I should know, it has ruled most of my life.
    At the minute its hold on me is so strong I struggle to even breathe.
    It is always with me, waiting in ambush for the first sign of weakness...
    Truth is: it has always been.

    I have been told that I chose to be unhappy. That I was needy. That I was weak...
    I have been given all those shitty advices such as get a hold of yourself, try and exercice...
    Bull, if I could do those things I would.

    People see what they want.
    It's easy to think "she needs time to herself" when in fact they just don't want the discomfort of dealing with you.
    I am scared all the time, I am terrified all the time, I hurt all the time.
    I am not the only one, I know that. No need to tell me.
    I know I will get through it. I have done it before and I will do it again.

    But right now I want to scream and cry and scream some more.
    The pain and the fear are taking over my mind, my sanity and my soul.
  2. moxman

    moxman The "Perfect Life" YouTube channel is neat

    Wow, that was really powerful, you never cease to amaze me girly. How many poems do you have? You ever think about sending them to a publisher and getting some of them published? Or am I just being a wild and crazy guy?

    I do care for you , never forget that =) *hug *hug *hug (you need more hugs =)