I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s time for me to decide, Today will be the day whether I choose to end it or survive. I’ve been trying to find the strength within for far too long You keep telling me it’ll be ok but I honestly think you are wrong. Will today be the day that the thread decides to break? Or will today be the day that from the depression do I wake? My options have been playing on my mind for what seems an eternity Maybe if I hang on then a miracle I will begin to see. For weeks on end I have felt lost and all alone Not a familiar face is left on these dark streets that I do roam Every one ran away before the depression caught them too They don’t know what it’s like to feel so awfully confused For far too long I have hidden behind a mask, I’ve been fooling you with smiles to avoid the questions you may ask Whilst really I’ve been wandering by myself in a world that I do not belong Asking myself what did I do to cause all this pain? Where did I go wrong? I’ve never been important enough to pay attention to, And maybe when I’m gone will you deny this to be true But I know the truth that shall be hidden behind your lies, I will know that it shall be only false tears that will fall from your eyes I’ve been digging in my past, trying to find a happy memory, But instead all’s I’ve become is my own enemy. I’ve failed at finding something that is worth clinging on for And inside my head have I created war. I’ve made my decision and a final farewell is due, I’m finally undoing the mess that I got myself into By tomorrow shall I have drawn my final breath And at last can I fall into my forever lasting peaceful rest.