I honestly don't know what I'm doing. I feel rediculous for even considering this. I thought I might find some sort of help, even a little, though I don't know how. To start out, I want to give my whole life story so you can understand me as me, but I really don't think that even matters. This is a thread, you don't know me and you never truly will. I find it sad, even now, that I'm focusing on just the small things in life to keep my mind off things, but it's failing quickly. And, I do feel guilty, I have no right to ask those who have suffered and are only human for some divine answers to my problems. However, if someone has a mind to listen please do. I tried to kill myself a few days ago and failed miserably. Midway through I thought I was being foolish and tried to stop myself, however I had already made myself sick, or so I believe, and fell asleep for a couple of days. When I awoke, no one that I lived with, or around me noticed, and called me lazy or selfish. I'm beginning to regret my descision. I want to go back to sleep and not wake up, but I'm afraid of that. I also don't want to stay awake with my self. I don't know anymore. Just please.