Hi All, I'm surprised that I finally have had a day where I feel completely normal - no ailments to hold me down. Forgot the past (with the help of some vodka and benzos) - not really feeling so horrible about the future I am about to face. I'm living today just to ignore the rest of the world and enjoy myself, I feel safe in this cocoon I've made for myself. Let's hope I can keep the trend going. It's difficult making it through so much - some one is looking out for me - I just know it. Times will get better (time heals all wounds). Just thought I'd share my feelings right now - they are good and happy (haven't experiences those in a while). Still have a voice nagging in my head, but my medication is helping to dull it. Lets hope I can keep this going (this round anyway). Currently listening to "Surfing on a Rocket" by Air: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC2cnW9GZ5Y Strange but revealing video.