Is it normal to be so depressed that you are just unwilling to do what it takes to get better. I went into the thread about "coping" but once I got in I thought, "who cares?" My mom tells me, "go out and get a job and your self-esteem will get better" but I just don't want to. I do want to get better, so i started seeing a therapist and my doctor has put me on medication, but that's all i'm willing to do for myself. I have 3 close friends, all girls, and they are all in serious, committed relationships. I have wanted that more than any of them! I remember us all talking in highschool about when we move on with our lives and I was the one who most wanted a serious, committed relationship. They all either wanted to play the field or focus on studying. And now, 3 years later, I'm alone and they're all to busy with their boyfriends to hang out, which is actually fine by me because i don't want to leave my bedroom, let alone my house. Anyways, if I so desperately want a boyfriend, why can i not find it in myself to go out and get a job or become more social to find one. It's MY FAULT i don't have one. Who am i gonna meet in my house!? And yet, I am unwilling... Does anyone else suffer from this along with their depression??