up all night

Discussion in 'Midnight Owl' started by The Scream, Jul 24, 2009.

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  1. The Scream

    The Scream Well-Known Member

    i've lost everyone...

    im sober now for like 2 hours in the past 6 days you could say...

    i haven't been sober in the past 6 days for more than 4 hours i think...

    and tonight i have a sober night...

    i needed it, actually... 'cause i was really really bad few hours ago...

    i couldn't even stand a second on my own two feet...

    i'd forget things i had done a second earlier... fucked up

    bu't it's over, im all alone now, and i just don't want to be sober...

    sober = death

    stoned = trying my best to get through the day

    i don't want to live...
    it's rather that people expect it from me...
    and i don't want to lose my freedom...
    so i pretend im all fine...
    but fuck it, today i tried my best not to step in front of a train...
    and im trying my best not to jump out of my window...
    and the funny (pathetic?) part is, they don't even know...
    'cause im too afraid to tell anyone...
    fuck it man, i don't want to go on like this anymore...
    not!
    i've had it...
     
  2. The Scream

    The Scream Well-Known Member

    i don't have anyone...

    never had anyone...

    ever, in my life to live for

    why expect it would come one day?

    why?

    fuck it

    im as solo as can be

    never had anyone

    not one

    and never will

    live alone, die alone

    bye bye

    i wanna leave this fucking ugly place

    now
     
  3. The Scream

    The Scream Well-Known Member

    guess im not gonna be sober...

    a friend of mine just called and asked me to join him and his friend... xD hehe
     
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