Ok so here's a sort of update on me. I'm still pretty much the same as far as incessant 'sadness' goes & my pill habbit is the same. Although I've been thinking, while I was having counselling sessions organised through this support agency, Nurofen plus, alcohol & crying became less of a 'big deal' in my daily life. I started to think for the first time in my life I had something some of you call a future. However this support agency could only fund 10 sessions max, and there's no way I could pay for it myself so it came to an end and I found myself rewinding back to exactly how I was before. What a waste of everyone's time. If just someone had been willing to put a bit more effort into it, I might have been ok. It all comes down to not being able to fund it, I have asked my GP countless times for a refferal for counselling, but all he's bothered about is trying to get me to take Prozac (which I have has a serious reaction to in the past). Now I think he has me down as refusing treatment because I refused to take it, so they're not going to 'fund' anything as they see me as a time waster. However social services have FINALLY set up a support team in my area for people with Aspergers, so yay, I'm on the list and in contact with them. I do hope they will reffer me for more counselling before things get any worse. Thats it I spose.