So, not posted in a while. Still feeling pretty depressed. Am very stressed. Have a major assignment due in in a week and I have not got any help with it and I dont know what I am going to do. It is worth a 3rd of my degree. I am so tired all the time as I am not sleeping and work are beginning to notice. On Friday I had a very emotional day, at least I managed not to cry at wrk... well not so anyone noticed. I seem to be emotional all the time and will cry at the drop of a hat. I am not sleeping and it is driving me mad. I cant concentrate in the day and I am worn out. I mentioned it to my doctor before and he said it could be the medication I am on. I have been on them coming up to 3 mnths now so it can't be that. I am going back to the doc on Friday. I doubt he will give me any pills to help even though I am struggling with uni and work. I want him to and I think I will ask him as these next few weeks are so important. I need to get a decent mark in my exams and coursework and if I can't concentrate through tiredness I can't see that happening. Things are going well between me and the bf. Although we have argued tonight over the cat as I let him out and we dont have a cat flap so now I have to wait up for him to return when he decides to. He is not used to going outside and has only just started it so now I am worrying about him. I am still worried about my suicidal intentions and urges. I have cut down on my drinking, i have decided I will not drink in the week unless I am going out for a reason. So that should stop my drunken thinking. I am also making sure that I dnt have any pain killers or pills in the house other than my medication...I cant afford to od on those as wont work and then I would have to buy a whole new prescription and now they are over £7. It has been a pain this week though. I dont know what I have done to my wrist but I can hardley move it. I dont think I have fallen on it or anything so I am wondering if it i arthritis but then I am only in my 20's so it shouldnt be that. It is so painful, I dont want to go to doc about it as feel as though i go enough with dperession etc. Anyway, the cat still isn't back. I am going to have to venture out and locate him. Dam thing!!!!!