1) -not heard anything from counsellor bout what will be happening 2) - NOT RECIEVED anything from that group thing - personality disorder netwrok 3) - not recieved most recent assessment paperwork, 4) - Messed up today, missed post and missed getting letter from doc sent to uni, I just hope that uni will accept a fax and if not I can leave work and go to uni tomorrow to hand it in - boss guy isn't there so as long as I can get the 1st appointment which is gonna be a massive loan which means me getting big points. 5) - Still feeling very low and planning whn i can next try. But then i think, I am planning uni stuff and give a dam. I wanna do a masters and have been accepted on one and going to do that but have actually applied for a few more and actually think i stand a good chance. 6) - I've got a tan at the moment - well more burn but it will go brown eventually, a apart from it is not funny even though one of the girls at work thinks it is funny to keep slapping my arms when i walk by, and in front of customers so I cant scream in pain or hit her back - she is so sly. I like my manager but it is good when he is not there as we pick on the only guy... in a fun way but it is a very female orientated office and we make him blush and we gossip. 7) - I am looking for a new job at the moment, have interview on Tuesday but really dont know wht the job is so i have applied for so many. 8) - I have had some wine tonight - so much for no mid week drinking 9) - and all though it seems as though things are going ok - I still feel like I wanna end everything and feel like cying and screaming and stamping andcutting and finding the right mix of pills so i can go in a peaceful way, I wanna know what Heath Ledger had - seems as though that may work!!!!!!!!!!!