I am bipolar. I do not fit into 1 or 2 so they list me as NOS. You know the highs and lows that bipolar people suffer. Right now I am on a high, everything is going well. On the other hand I dread the low that is coming. The higher the high, the lower the low. I want to buy the thing I need to end my life, just to have it. It would comfort me knowing there is a way out. I made a covenant with my self not to end my life but I still believe it would be comforting to know I can end my life at any minute.