i'm tired of feeling the way i do. for about a year now i've been trying to deal with a depression that seemed to have come out of the blue. i've been to the doctor and im on antidepressants. they work a little i think. it's hard to tell on days like these. feeling like theres no way out of my own head. i've thought about ending it a few times. i cant bring myself to do it. if i could sleep for the rest of my life i would. everything's just too much. it never used to be like that. i used to be so happy. it wasnt even that long ago. i miss those days when i would hang out with my friends. carefree. i want that back. what happened to me?