Having major suicide attack about every day. It's pretty strong here. I feel like I'm in the way. They're drunk or something. I should be as well. Working on clearing out. Doing some health and learning things. Getting new docs. Helps. Dad had a stroke and major attack in B'ham and has attack-mode on everytime I approach. Don't know the purpose. trying but I get sucked into someone's vortex immediately. Do they need help? Do I need to give? What is going on? I'm grabbing whatever I possibly can! So many ppl involved and I just like to keep to myself and a little life of awesome. What is their point?