I am about to show a part of me, I would rather keep hidden. I am at times so very lacking of self confidence. The thing thats troubling me now is mostlikely not worth troubling over at all, and yet... here I am with a sense of self-hatred So a friend of mine who moved to switzerland was coming to visit belgium during New Years, she mentioned this to me and told me we should get together. She was staying with another friend of mine for a few days *We should totally meet up for a NewYears drink! I will ask -Someone's name- first thing when I get there* Now, a few days have passed and I had not received any messages. Now that she's back in switzerland she texts me *Happy new year Ramo!!! Hope this one will be much much better that the last one, a year of goodness and freedom only! It's such a pitty we didn't get to meet up..but hey! We're not dead ,right?* The first thing that bothers me here, is that she acts as if she was wanting to meet me, while obviously they did not care at all. She tells me that.... *Ramo, one thing, please do not take the whole thing personally because it was not. it just happened the way it did. out meeting was quite overwhelming itself and i guess that it took over.* *Ramo. the fact that we finally didn't make it to meet up wasn't about you or anything else. i did want that and i strongly believe -Someone's name- as well. things just went the way they did and it had absolutely had nothing to do with you personally, please believe me. we just followed the flow and suddenly time dissapeared...* Of course I am not upset with them for not taking a bit of time to invite me over for a drink, its not like they are supposed to, even though she mentioned she would. But these things just make me so negative about myself, I doubt myself and blame myself and eventually once again end up disliking myself, because it would appear that those others also dislike me. I know that it is mostlikely a very silly situation to worry about... but it hurts, rather deeply... Wish it did not. How can I learn to accept these things and react to them in a mature and less self-hating manner? Thanks for Listening.