I've been feeling alright all day until this evening. The last few days have been pretty rough for me but it's just like tonight the whole thing has taken over in my head and I don't know what to do. I'm having visions of me committing suicide and voices screaming at me to do it and the urge is so bad. I just dont want to be alive and having to deal with this anymore! Somebody please save me from myself cause I could easily be dead within the next hour and part of me knows that it would hurt my family if I wasn't there to pick up the pieces when they fuck up.