I have been in a really bad way recently over the last few weeks. Everyday things are getting worse. In the last 2 weeks ive overdosed twice but unfortunately am still here. I'm now thinking of other ways to do it, the thoughts are there all the time no matter what i do they wont go and i'm pretty sure i'm gonna reach that limit soon enough sitting here now im dam close to doing something. The additional problem is i have very little support but have confided in a friend. She suffers from bipolar and severe depression herself. Since telling her the way things are for me she came round to mine earlier and gave me an ultimatum. I have made her seriously ill again and aparently i 'owe' her partner because hes got her to the person she is today and ive knocked her back months as everything i said to her about my problems brought all hers back up and she says im bringing her down with me. The ultimatum is i carry on like i am and she walks away (has already done but i can change it one last time) this means she would not be there for me anymore at all and if i do something to myself and succeed she will not come to my funeral. Or the other side is i put a tiny bit of effort in to it and work on getting better and she will be there for me as long and as intense as it may be. I also have to go to her house every other day to make some 'memories' and this will happen for 3 months. if i don't go she walks away. So my question is what do i do? Cos of course i don't want to be like this and ive tried and tried to get better and recieve help but it literally is not working i just want to end everything and go, but i have such an enormous amount of guilt on my plate that ive made my friend become ill. If i had known this was to be the case i would never have told her anything but its too late and this is the situation but PLEASE someone help me and tell me what to do..