urges *possible trigger*

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by *dilligaf*, Apr 2, 2007.

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  1. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    ARGHHHHHHH

    They are SO SO bad.

    I've been thinking about nothing BUT s/i for the last couple of days.

    I got as far as holding a bl*de against myself last night, and got angry, I ended up throwing it out of the window and sitting there crying.

    I dreamt bout it last night...omg how sad is that.

    I'm starting to wonder if people WANT me to fail at this...they keep pushing me so much.

    I'm on day 31..I dont want to give in to it. Please dont let me give in to this

    (Not that I know what you can do, sorry, shutting up agian now.)
     
  2. Lost Disciple

    Lost Disciple Well-Known Member

    Sam, I know how you feel. I know what it's like. I'm on the end of my first month as well, and I'll put it frankly--it's hell. The only thing you can do is just hang in there and keep pushing, no matter what, to your goal--the breaking of the addiction.

    Maybe, and this is *just* a maybe, you could let the people around you know that you SI, and that you're trying to quite. Maybe they could help.


    Sorry for the short reply--the bell just rang and I have to get to my next class. But feel free to PM me any time even if only to rant.
     
  3. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    thank you hun, they are passing slowly. but always seem to come back twice as strong.

    as for the telling people, most of my mates know i am attempting to stop.

    also, congrats on making a month :hug:
     
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