I don't know what to do or where to turn anymore. I have fought so hard to live. Despite craving to die. I want to move forward with my life, move away from the crippling suicidality, anxiety problems, the whole shebang. Try to get my life back on track. But I can't. Because this holds me back. I have tried docs, meds, therapies, etc, and the last time I saw a psych he told me I had no problems, despite the fact of my history, the fact I am signed off long term sick for 'mental health problems', despite the fact I was on a section at the time, etc. I don't have anywhere that I can see I can turn to, to get help. I can't see anyway forward, which leaves me here, like this, forever. Except I refuse to stay like this. I am not after replies, I am just venting. I don't want to be told to try more options. You can only try so much before you give up. Yet I don't want to have given up, even though I have. Maybe writing this out will enable me to see some sort of point to life, or a future, or hope, or something. As opposed to staying as I am, which is in a total mess.