Have you ever felt like you don't want to be distracted? You know you should try the alternatives and distract yourself but you don't really want to? Im urging..again! I really really want to harm, and I have a blade in my pocket. Part of me feels like I just don't care what people think anymore, or if they see my cuts. I really want to cut..scrap that..I need to cut. I'm on stage tonight tho thats the only problem. urgh...I just want to cut and cut and cut!! It's all I can think about! My mind is really screwed up at the moment. The stuff im writing and saying is completly irrational and makes no sense and yet I cant stop feeling/thinking it!! I don't normally get like this...I don't understand it and it scares me, but the one professional I see can't seem to understand that. argh...help??!!!